My Poetry...
DementedA sobbing girl sits
Finally broken Drowning in twisted Baneful thoughts Tears stream From her bloodshot eyes Blood stains Wash down her pale arms of ash A demented clock perches Gracefully watching her fall apart It ticks away each painfully endured second Tick tock Tick tock She lunges forward Losing grip on reality As she smashes desperatly At the source of the bemused ticking Yet it still echos inescapably In the back of her mind Tick tock Tick tock So again, she sits This time rocking back and forth To the steady beat That haunts her soul Tick tock Tick tock Shackled LifeStuck in one place
Never a hope of escape Only my thoughts to keep me sane Never sleeping I always lay awake Hoping to find a way out But for now i remain in chains AloneWhen will I find someone
Someone that understands Understands who I am Who I am is an individual An individual that needs someone Someone that can help me Help me overcome my demons My demons that haunt my nightmares My nightmares that make me feel alone You and MeYou and me
That's all I need To bring happiness To everything You and me That's all I need To erase the sorrow From everything You and me That's all I need To take my fear away From everything You and me That's all I need To bring happiness To everything |
Me and My ReflectionLook at me
Now look at my reflection I sit, crying cheap drugstore makeup My reflection flashes a brilliantly artificial smile I scream from pain of a razor blade My reflection giggles unknowingly at the world I pray someone will notice something is wrong My reflection will gleefully deny when someone does So I smash and tear and claw at the mirror The mirror that shows this blissfully ignorant lie And soon enough The untruethful perfection they see Breaks And turns into the screaming, crying, scared girl That is me OneOne silent tear shed
Two bashes to my head Three hours wasted crying Four people question why I'm trying Another silent tear is shed A few more bashes to my head A couple more hours screaming and crying Now everyone wonders why I'm trying UnreachableAt the table sits the hatter and the hare
All sanity stripped away until madness shows bare You'll fit in With a nervous tick And blood dripping down your wrist So come and sit For we are far too ignorant At this party you will lose your mind Frolic with us in this sinful Wonderland And forget the world that you left behind Why?Why does my life have to be like this
A living hell suited just for me Why do I have to put up with it Just to grow up and die The way I see it Im just another pawn In this stupid game we call life I Miss YouI miss staying up with you all night long
I miss all those late night phone calls I miss us arguing over who was right and wrong Don't you miss any of that at all? I miss us fighting over who saw that guy first I miss knowing you would have my back in a brawl I miss you standing up for me when people were the worst Don't you miss any of that at all? I miss having you there for me I miss having my best friend I miss the ignorant plans that were to be I hate that it all had to end Something NewWhat is this
It seems like something new This feeling That I feel for you It's so different To me this feeling is a stranger Because love to me Has always been a danger It is my biggest fear But I know the love is true Because my dear angel It's between me and you |
MisleadThey threw me into a room
They promised it would be fun But all I see is an empty room With padding all over the walls and floor They gave me a new jacket They promised I would love it But all I can do is hug myself They wouldn't let me have my ipod They promised there would be something to listen too But all I hear is my head hitting the wall And the out of tune hum that escapes my lips Then a scream shatters my beloved silence It may have been my own It just went on and on Never ending Until those nice men in lab coats Entered my room And put a needle in my arm Then I felt funny Maybe they weren't as nice as I thought Rain FallThe dreary day
Comes upon us once more Casting people to flee Seeking comfort indoors But not me I shall stay where I am It does not bother me Daddy DearestWhy would you want me
Why would you need me I'm nothing special to you You were told you couldn't see me And you obliged with out a fight Because I'm nothing special to you Then you wanted to come back Acting like you want me again When I'm nothing special to you I turn you away expecting you to fight But why would you I'm nothing special to you Giving upMaster oh master
Why do you enjoy making me suffer Master oh master Why must you always make things tougher Ringleader oh ringleader Let me out of your grasp Ringleader oh ringleader Why are my wrists bound in these clasps Conqueror oh conqueror Please remove my shackels and we will be done Conqueror oh conqueror I promise i will no longer try to run |